and it was wonderful... :)


i really have nothing else to blog about except the fact that i hated standing across from someone who i used to date and feeling this incredible tension that made me want to stab him in the face for making me once fall for hard. maybe i should stop dating altogether, it'll probably make life less annoying and definitely lessen my violent tendencies. that would be sad though. i can't imagine going through life without a boy propelling my fiction forward. but whatever.

i guess despite feeling a whole spectrum of emotions upon being greeted by his face, the nostalgia i felt as we smiled at each other across the noise was worth it. it was nice to finally know that i've reached the point where i can truly say that the sight of him made me feel nothing. it was just like spotting a gleaming multicolored pebble lying on the ground, strangely reflecting the sun's glare into a rainbow on your brow, and kicking it out of your path.

after four years, the boy, who inspired daggers shaped like stars, and I have come to this^click.

p.s: i need to quit smoking permanently. apparently quitting for two months was useless because now i'm back puffing on that horrid stick and having major trouble breathing. i'm pathetic when it comes to self-will.