i've been in grad school for almost a month, and here's what i have to say about it: it is fucking hard trying to balance my corporate-drone-self and my school-nerd-self. sure, i may only attend classes for about 7 hours every Saturday; but still, trying to finish the readings and assignments while swamped with work is nowhere near funny.

as of now, i can proudly proclaim that:

1) i wrote and submitted a paper that is no where near the required Film Review,

2) whenever i attempt to recite, the seemingly intellectual-sounding voice in my head morphs into brainless thought that gets ignored by everyone the moment i open my mouth; and

3) i am so very tired.

i think i've been holed up in a cubicle relegated to menial brainless tasks for too long that every intellectual energy in me has dwindled into nothing. i can barely even muster an ounce of decent intellectual thought that i am beginning to fear that my first semester in grad school is going to garner me horrible grades - grades that i was, thankfully, able to steer clear away from back why i was a mere undergrad.

but whatever.

to prevent this post from being just a pathetic rant about my inadequacies, i will insert here a big hoorah for my trip to Hong Kong & Macau this Christmas (HOORAH!!!). i just really need to get away and experience a whole different culture (and food!); and hopefully next summer, if all plans push through, i'd be away for an epic Vietnam-Bangkok getaway which will overwrite my pseudo-desire to visit Singapore again - which i am surprisingly perfectly fine with. i think after all these years, i am finally enjoying the Philippines and getting oh-so-bored with the thought of Singapore (and its food).

it's funny how life goes.