my uncle passed away yesterday and now i'll be spending holy week meeting relatives from my mother's side and trying to remember people that i haven't seen since i was a kid. funerals depress me.

so summer's officially here and i know because my skin is starting to flare up. screw the sun, the heat and the humidity that summer brings. hate hate hate. i better get my medication soon before i turn into a ball of rash.

i also hate the fact that i've gained weight. i think i need another family crisis to help me lose the excess flab. i remember losing so much weight (and feeling so darn sexy) when the dad thing happened; but now that i'm numbed to everything, i've been doing nothing by stuffing myself with food. oh wells, i've long ago embraced the fact that while everyone slims down during summer (and term breaks), i gain weight and balloon into a whale. whatever. at least i still find humor in my fatness; like how i find it funny that my arm-flab wobbles whenever i wave my arm - it's like jello. humor is love. if i didn't find life (especially the people that litter my life) hilarious, i probably would need to be heavily medicated just to get through everything.

while it's great to laugh and die from tummy spasms, i really should stop poking fun of people. i just can't seem to get through a day without commenting on some poor stranger. that's bad. karma will soon bite my ass. someone once said (or did i read it somewhere?) that people who do nothing but make fun of others are the most insecure bastards in the world. great.

am i that insecure bastard who says stuff like: "she forgot her dentures"
that made my lung almost pop out of my nose during class by the way.


i know i said i would be getting the AWD72-TKF but i got the AWD82T-TRD instead. it costs 4k more than the other one but since i got a 30% discount for paying in cash i managed to spend much less than i intended to. sweet. it's pretty and has a nice warm tone to it. i'm still not used to the odd balance of weight and the placement of the strap-buttons though, so it will take a lot of getting used to (and hours playing it standing up) but other than that, it's purdy and sounds eargasmic.