forcing myself not to sleep, so i can finish my thesis in peace while everyone's asleep, is how i punish myself for procrastinating. i probably wouldn't be this stressed out and lacking so much sleep had i started writing earlier in the term. seriously, the eye bags and the pimples are not funny. just so you know, it wasn't fun being bothered by this stupid pimple, that decided to grow at the tip of my nose and throb whenever i inhaled deeply - making me feel as if someone was pushing a watermelon up my right nostril. ok, i'm exaggerating, but thesis season is seriously wreaking havoc on my skin, not attractive at all.

anyways, i can't go blaming myself now because i have no time to think about nonsense. all i should be focusing on right now is finishing this damn thing and getting a good grade because there is a high probability that my grades in my other subjects are low as fuck. this is what happens when i skip too many classes and decide to not submit assignments.

my relstri (religion and morality) midterm grade is a prime example. i don't think i've ever gotten a grade below 2.0 in my entire college life, so it was rather depressing to merely score a 1.4. i quickly got over that though when i realized that despite not submitting the book report which constitutes 25% of the grade and a reaction paper, i still managed to pass. how strange.

anyways, i shall now try not to miss so many classes or at least submit assignments on time. it's just hard to bother with relstri since the subject is taught in filipino and, while i have been living in the Philippines for the past 4 years, i am still incompetent with my mother-tongue. pathetic.

oh wells, at least i now don't have to deal with drama.

....eighteen pages into my thesis proposal and my brain is already fried.
it's moments like these when i hate being an undergraduate.