because i am a child, i found it greatly amusing that Rob grew boobs for his video Ever the Same^click, causing me to burst into my usual bout of uncontrollable giggles and almost choking on my Blue-Bunny vanilla ice cream peppered with huge chunks of Ghirardelli dark chocolate chips (yum) - such a decadent post-dinner dessert should never be choked upon.

anyway, since i possess no shame, i decided to crop the image on photoshop for everyone to enjoy - and no, i did not manipulate it in any way whatsoever. very sexy Mr. Thomas.

and yes, i've been binging on ice-cream, lots and lots of ice-cream. wait, aren't i supposed to be on a diet? technically yes, but diets are made to be broken; and even though i've been feeling rather on the obese side lately and constantly whining about how fat i've gotten, i just can't bring myself to exercise or at least eat healthier. it's my fault really, because ever since i developed the mindset of regarding my fatty rolls as curves (and curves on a woman is sexy), i've gotten in the habit of using that as an excuse whenever mother would nag me to hop on our treadmill and run like a freaking hamster.

"i'm not fat, mother, i'm curvacious - like beyonce or scarlett or that chick from camp rock."

i know, bullshit.
guess it's back to pilates and million mile runs so i can get my blob of a body back into shape.


onto something relatively heartbreaking. i've got a decision to make by the end of this semester and one of the things i can't help thinking of is this:

[teeny-tiny excerpt from Chase the Light^click - some crap i wrote a few months back]

She inhaled before flicking the ashes on the tray in between them, feeling the warm glow of the stick inching closer to her fingertips as she stared at the gray swirls trickling out the side of his lips, intertwining with the thick summer air.

"You know what I want to do? I think I want to walk on coals."

it's something i would miss i guess.
isn't ambivalence just great?